There were times when I was with him and it was too much. I was with him but I was constantly thinking of you, thinking of us and everything we had been and everything you walked away from.

During those moments, I wanted so desperately to leave, to go home and shut my door. Be alone with my thoughts of you-replaying everything we did and everything you said.

However, I didn’t. I didn’t leave. I stayed with the boy who I knew was the safer choice. I stayed with him because he wasn’t the one who walked out on me. I stayed because he was there when you weren’t.

I think about you all the time. There are times when thoughts of you consume me whole. However, I let those moments pass. You don’t deserve it anymore.